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Can he tell?

There he is, as handsome as ever, looking as if nothing special had happened. Or did I dream it all? Was there never a moment of complete understanding between us? I close my eyes briefly, collect my scattered thoughts and fragmented memories, and there, clear as day, I see it all again. I was watching the ocean, letting the breeze cool my cheeks and play with my hair. I had run away from my own birthday party. Mother would never forgive me if she knew I escaped my duties, but the tediousness wore me down and I ran before I would be rude to anyone. Footsteps coming closer, I knew it was him, he didn’t startle me when he suddenly stood there next to me. We stood there overlooking the ocean, with one glance he knew how I felt. No words were said and I relaxed into our mutual silence. "Your mother will soon come looking for you, you know." He turned to look at me, still leaning on the banister. Ridiculously handsome in his white suit. I suppressed the need to run my finger

unrequited

i wish i could tell you how i feel. little words. big meanings. hold my hand. i want to feel you here next to me. you don’t have to speak. big words. little meaning. feel my heart beating. i need you to understand. how i feel about you.

falling apart

feelings. crawling around under my skin. burning my eyes and constricting my throat. anger. tears and hopelessness. nothingness. missed opportunities. being a coward. feelings. slipping through my fingers. time. illusions. never enough. wanting to scream. not finding my voice. talking and talking and talking. alone. chipped nail polish. keeping up appearances. everything is alright. crying. silent screams. swallowing the lump in my throat. eyes dry. only skin deep. no substance. feelings. no words come. frustration. staring into space. apathy and mania. too many feelings. enough.

Another

I have my fingers crossed Only a few minutes Before certainty Will you look my way Has another caught you I have my fingers crossed A lump in my throat Your voice is heard High pitched laughter My body is ice Translucent I have my fingers crossed You stumble She keeps walking Never moving from my spot I'm just a girl Invisible, without voice