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falling apart

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feelings. crawling around under my skin.
burning my eyes and constricting my throat.
anger. tears and hopelessness. nothingness.
missed opportunities. being a coward.
feelings. slipping through my fingers.
time. illusions. never enough. wanting to scream.
not finding my voice. talking and talking and talking.
alone. chipped nail polish. keeping up appearances.
everything is alright. crying. silent screams.
swallowing the lump in my throat. eyes dry.
only skin deep. no substance. feelings.
no words come. frustration. staring into space.
apathy and mania. too many feelings. enough.


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